I’m at the point in my life where I realize that life is better off the way it is. People enter and leave our lives for a reason, we learn, we grow, we change. Theres so much I look back upon, wondering why. I will never know the answers, and maybe I’m not supposed to delve so deep into it. You trust, you love, you allow yourself to let go, open up to new opportunities in life. You hope, you dream. And sometimes you think that your dreams have come true. You believe that you find perfection, but fail to realize the obvious. I’ve learnt that Mr.Perfect is not always Mr.Right.
I’ve realized that once you hurt someone, it will take years to trust again. Love can suddenly become hate. The damage that you do is irreversible. When the heart has been pierced, then life changes, in ways you cannot explain. A new map is drawn, a new path is followed…as far away from the cause as possible. You become harder on the outside, thinking that no one and nothing can affect you. You become stronger, less gullable and re-enforce the boundaries surrounding you, making it more difficult to get access to you. You learn to live life for yourself.
The events that have taken place in my life have taught me who are the important individuals in my life, the ones who care and who will stand by my side. If people truly love you they will do everything in their power to make sure that your happiness is a priority. They will not create lies involving you, they will not defame you. They will be the person you believed that they were. They will not run towards something that suddenly seems better, giving them more status in life, someone who appears more beautiful, or wealthier.
Promises mean nothing no more. Feelings can change in moments. Life can change in the blink of an eye. I’m the only one that can make my life meaningful, looking past everything. Looking towards the future, and never losing faith. I’ve learnt to stop being so foolish and to stop trusting so easily. The people you cross paths with in this journey, change you and eventually you become the way you are because of the various chapters that occur in your life. Life is uncertain, love is uncertain. The only thing which is certain is my inevitable, eternal, afterlife. I live for that, and for the people in my life who make living worthwhile.
